Hello World! Remember me? I’m back, hopefully for longer than three entries this time. So much has changed since my first post, yet I seem to have come full circle back to a similar situation, just in a different place.
I started this blog as a way of getting myself out of my solitary bubble. Many of my hobbies do not involve interacting with others and it’s easy to have weeks where I only leave my apartment to go to work, where I spend most of the day alone, on a computer. I wanted to push myself to try new things, meet new people, and leave my comfort zone. I thought writing about my adventures would force me to have them. What I didn’t expect was how rapidly my new lifestyle would take off. I took every opportunity I could and before long my social schedule was packed. Too packed. Eventually I had to start to schedule nights off in order to get the alone time I needed.
Although I initially succeeded at my goal, this blog was a casualty to my perfectionism and lack of free time. I took notes along the way, had great blog ideas that I didn’t want to let go, wanted to wait until each post was perfect, and as a result, posted nothing. I thought my absence would be justified if I re-emerged by posting all the missing pieces to fill in the timeline, but all that did was prolong my absence.
I have made great strides in the past three years – I developed a thriving social life, worked on important projects at my job, developed new skills, and finally started travelling internationally. But something was missing, so earlier this year I moved back to my home state to be closer to family. Unfortunately, some of the close friends I was trying to be closer to have already left to explore opportunities elsewhere, so I find myself back in the situation of needing to rebuild a social life while fighting a strong desire to stay home in my cozy apartment. Once again, I’m turning to writing as my motivation. This time however, I’m learning to let go of perfection and just try to have a real experience. This time I plan to expose the roller coaster ride, not just the positives; the messy imperfections that make things real. So buckle up, and let’s go for a ride!